I wrote this a few years ago, and apart from some obvi\u00adous\u00adly out-of-date errors, it still sums me up pret\u00adty well. Don\u2019t mind the melodrama.<\/p>\n
some\u00adthing kin\u00adda sad about This par\u00adtic\u00adu\u00adlar page is sup\u00adposed to be about me, the per\u00adson in my life who I know the best. It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s a pity that with\u00adout hav\u00ading expe\u00adri\u00adenced the mas\u00adsive ordeal of get\u00adting to know me, I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t give an alto\u00adgeth\u00ader accu\u00adrate assess\u00adment. Cue a dra\u00admat\u00adic shift in per\u00adspec\u00adtive as I shrug off the mor\u00adtal\u00adly-fixed first-per\u00adson cam\u00adera and try to describe myself from the outside\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6<\/p>\n Andrew is about 5\u201c11\u2032, with auburn hair, brown eyes, and Eng\u00adlish skin. Trans\u00adla\u00adtion: tall, skin\u00adny, and white. A short list of his inter\u00adests would include pro\u00adgram\u00adming, graph\u00adic design, intel\u00adli\u00adgent music, phi\u00adlos\u00ado\u00adphy, con\u00adsole games, and the exquis\u00adite mus\u00adcu\u00adla\u00adture, move\u00adment, and aura of a guy. He also enjoys the look of sur\u00adprise that\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s pass\u00ading over your face.<\/p>\n Andrew is a major pain to go dri\u00adving with as he can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t nav\u00adi\u00adgate. He\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s hope\u00adless with street signs, although he can read obscure pro\u00adgram doc\u00adu\u00admen\u00adta\u00adtion and remem\u00adber it ver\u00adba\u00adtim, years lat\u00ader. He spends hours pour\u00ading through infor\u00adma\u00adtion to men\u00adtal\u00adly reverse engi\u00adneer how a sys\u00adtem is imple\u00adment\u00aded. If he builds some\u00adthing and it doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t seem to fit, he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll tear it apart and build it bet\u00adter. He isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t afraid to wipe the can\u00advas clean if the pic\u00adture is terrible.<\/p>\n Andrew tries to mul\u00adti\u00adtask and fre\u00adquent\u00adly fails. He works bet\u00adter alone, unin\u00adterupt\u00aded, and in the dark, as he is now. He is a night per\u00adson, his cre\u00adative thought com\u00ading at ungod\u00adly hours.<\/p>\n He tries to go out look\u00ading as he wants, not as he should. His like for for\u00admal clothes is occa\u00adsion\u00adal\u00adly mis\u00adtak\u00aden for snob\u00adbi\u00adness, but he just enjoys feel\u00ading neat. Unfor\u00adtu\u00adnate\u00adly that neat\u00adness doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t car\u00adry over to his room, his desk, or his floor.<\/p>\n He doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t shop a lot. Andrew has a dis\u00adtaste for cap\u00adi\u00adtal\u00adism and a stronger dis\u00adtaste for com\u00admer\u00adcial\u00adism. He would rather spend on expe\u00adri\u00adences than pos\u00adses\u00adsions. He likes Tyler Dur\u00adden. \u201cThe things you own end up own\u00ading you.\u201d<\/p>\n He can some\u00adtimes stare into a screen so intense\u00adly he for\u00adgets he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s there. He can see his hands typ\u00ading but doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t know how they\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re doing it. The small box of CRT becomes his world at those times, so close he can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t stand it, but so far away it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s intangible.<\/p>\n His favourite song of all time is Bon\u00adnie Tyler\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s \u201cTotal Eclipse of the Heart\u201d, fol\u00adlowed by Tool\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s \u201cThird Eye\u201d. He knows the sor\u00adrow and need in the first and the des\u00adper\u00adate search of the sec\u00adond. He can fall into music and dis\u00adap\u00adpear for hours at a time.<\/p>\n Blue is now his favourite colour. Red was his first favourite, then yel\u00adlow. He thinks that\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s because of how his life, anger and under\u00adstand\u00ading has changed. He has not researched this but finds it inter\u00adest\u00ading how a lot of peo\u00adple his age buy red cars.<\/p>\n He doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have a huge cir\u00adcle of friends. There is a wari\u00adness that lim\u00adits his inter\u00adac\u00adtion with oth\u00ader peo\u00adple. He finds putting oth\u00aders in a posi\u00adtion of trust is hard, but he does believe in a com\u00admon good\u00adness. Social gath\u00ader\u00adings are enter\u00adtain\u00ading but aren\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t a big part of his life. He wants a close cir\u00adcle of peo\u00adple as his fam\u00adi\u00adly, not a thou\u00adsand dis\u00adtant relatives.<\/p>\n He dis\u00adlikes drink\u00ading estab\u00adlish\u00adments for the most part, because he wants to talk with a per\u00adson, not their blood alco\u00adhol con\u00adtent. Andrew does not drink alco\u00adhol, take drugs, or smoke. He likes to stay accute\u00adly aware of the sen\u00adsa\u00adtions around him. This could be because he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s afraid of the temp\u00adta\u00adtion to cross his shad\u00adow, or just because he finds he can relax with\u00adout intoxication.<\/p>\n He gets frus\u00adtrat\u00aded eas\u00adi\u00adly. His anger is quick to rise but not to sur\u00adface unless invi\u00adta\u00adtion says oth\u00ader\u00adwise. Giv\u00aden the right audi\u00adence he will expound on a point until the nail is flush. He likes to sort prob\u00adlems out direct\u00adly and occa\u00adsion\u00adal\u00adly asks ques\u00adtions he knows he shouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t ask.<\/p>\n He wants some\u00adone in his life to adopt and to adopt him. A rela\u00adtion\u00adship is intri\u00adcate, the beau\u00adty in detail; each is infi\u00adnite\u00adly unique and irreplacable.<\/p>\n so good to see you i came out to watch you play I wrote this a few years ago, and apart from some obvi\u00adous\u00adly out-of-date errors, it still sums me up pret\u00adty well. Don\u2019t mind the melo\u00addra\u00adma. some\u00adthing kin\u00adda sad about the way that things have come to be. desen\u00adsi\u00adtized to every\u00adthing; what became of sub\u00adtle\u00adty? 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\nthe way that things have come to be.
\ndesen\u00adsi\u00adtized to everything;
\nwhat became of subtlety?<\/em><\/p>\n
\ni\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve missed you so much
\nso glad it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s over
\ni\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve missed you so much<\/em><\/p>\n
\nwhy are you run\u00adning away?
\ni came out to watch you play
\nwhy are you running?<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"